Rewind 2018: both bookish & personal matters

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I'm a bit surprised myself for being able to log into this blog again after so many sorrows happened in the history of my blog's archives. Instead of just putting a banner "HIATUS" or "This blog has been disbanded" and never come here anymore, I decide to make a proper post. And after so many thoughts, this one turns out not to be a goodbye post,

...but a rather emotional you-can-see-my-heart post. ♥

For the past months I always had an urge to delete this blog. But then when I thought about what would happen after I delete this blog, I felt sad, and broken. This blog has been with me for so long and I even call this a home, for me and only me.

When I didn't really have friends to talk about all books I have read, this blog came in handy. It always has a place for me to share everything I think and feel about those books. And even I didn't have so many readers or viewers, it didn't matter. I already shared my thoughts about those books and I felt so relieved. It was good if people found my reviews helpful, and it was even better when all those words on my not-so-smart brain have been written here and at least someone's reading it. Yes, I could talk about books to my sister E and my dearest friends N and D, but talking is so much different compared to writing. So that's it, I think I can never delete this blog, ever, because this is a home for me to talk about books in a way I want and love.

But.. I also not sure I'll diligently post reviews every months next years. As time goes by, we are getting older, and the time is the essential here. Life happens, shit happens. I could read so many books if I want and I could review as much of them, but the other things in my life would be abandoned. This blog will continue, but as you can see, I will not post entry as much as I could several years ago.

Bookish Talk

you can see it fully here

Now let's have a real talk about books! ^^

*pake bahasa indo aja deh, jariku keseleo nginggris terus* 

Seperti tahun sebelumnya, buku-buku yang kubaca nggak pernah mencapai target Goodreads yang kubuat di awal tahun. Tadinya mau pinjem komik adek yang seabrek untuk mengisi kekurangan, tapi kemudian mager banget mau baca. Bukan karena mager aja, tapi juga belum move on dari Gone with the Wind yang kubaca hampir setengah tahun ini. Rasanya belum rela untuk pindah ke buku lain. Terbukti dengan buku keempat Bliss Bakery yang kubaca setengah hati. Pikiranku kadang di Bliss, tapi kadang kabur ke Scarlett dan Rhett.. 😂 Jadi, ya sudah lah, aku berhenti baca dulu dan jumlah challenge-nya lagi-lagi kukurangi~ #sorrynotsorry

Meski bacaanku lagi-lagi cuma seuprit dan jauh banget dari list bacaan yang sebelumnya sudah kurencanakan, ada rasa bahagia yang nggak bisa dijelaskan pakai kata-kata kalau ngomongin bacaanku tahun ini. Aku selesai membaca Percy Jackson meski telat, dan serial yang satu itu ternyata baguuuus. Aku juga nemu dua serial yang worth untuk kulanjut baca di tahun berikutnya, yaitu serial Wayfarers dan Murder Most Unladylike Mysteries. Beberapa buku dari dua serial itu sudah ku-review lho, silahkan dicari lewat Books by Index kalau kalian tertarik.

Kebahagiaan terbesarku adalah karena berhasil menamatkan Gone with the Wind, buku setebal dosa yang literally bisa bikin anjing tetangga pingsan! Awalnya aku males banget mau mulai baca buku yang satu ini. Kalau saja buku ini punyaku, pasti aku bacanya nanti-nanti aja. Tapi, karena ini dipinjemin, dan waktu itu juga ada temenku yang nunggu antrian pinjeman, jadinya aku terpaksa baca. Dan ternyata, buku ini nggak semengerikan itu~ *menangis terharu di pelukan si bangsat Rhett* (?)

Aku belum nge-review Gone with the Wind di blog sih.. dan sebenernya bingung juga gimana mau nge-review-nya, but I could say this book is really worth to read, emang cocok masuk daftar 1001 books to read before die. I have to read at least satu buku bantal or one classic for a year, and it really satisfied me in different ways: Les Miserables yang suram, lalu ada Jane Eyre yang manis, dan sekarang Gone with the Wind yang meski beralur lambat namun menghibur. Yeah, ada sih momen-momen berlindung dari medan perang yang bikin tegang, namun aku lebih banyak ngakaknya setiap baca momen-momen Scarlett dan Rhett. 😂 This book is my new fave! Aku bahkan berniat untuk punya buku ini sendiri biar bisa baca ulang momen-momen favorit. *grin~*

Next Year's Goals

We all live because we have hopes. Jadi, meski harapan tahun kemarin nggak bener-bener terkabul, I'm still so ready making wishes! Even if those wishes are just the same wishes I said last year~

1. Tahun 2018 benar-benar tahun penuh kesialan untukku—the real pain in my sexy ass! Sampai-sampai aku berharap kalau 2018 itu manusia, kemungkinan besar aku bakal nekad ngebunuh tuh orang. Jadi, aku berharap 2019 akan lebih baik dan jauh dari kesialan 2018.
2. Aku berharap aku juga akan menikmati bacaan-bacaanku di tahun berikutnya.
3. And last! Punya cukup duit untuk beli laptop baru yang bagus biar bisa main Ragnarok Eternal Love tanpa nge-lag. Lol. 😂😂😂

How about you guys?

Are you having fun this year?

Well, having fun or not,

lets hope next year we all will be happy

and got a lot of love and bless from all the people around us! ♥

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

...well I just wanna have a good sleep after eating a lot tonight~

💋💋💋